Saturday, October 01, 2011

This Is IT!

My last post before we head to our little guy's country.  We are packing like crazy - 'should we bring this?' or 'did you remember this?'.  To say this weekend has been hectic would be an understatement.  We've made what feels like 42 trips to Target - for all those last minute necessities.

We're anxious.  We're excited.  We're ready - so, so ready.

And, we'll admit - I'll admit - we're a bit scared.  This is so new.  So different.  And in some ways, when we pull out of the driveway tomorrow, we'll be leaving behind our old life, and taking the first step into our new one.  It's a bit daunting - the unknown.  We've read everything we can read - talked to everyone we can - and we still don't know it all.  We still won't know what it's like until we get there.  We still won't know what he's like until we meet him.

The unknown is scary.  And tonight, I'm feelin' it.

I just got off the phone with my favorite brother (okay - my only brother...but if I had another one, he'd still probably be my favorite...!).  He's away on a weekend fishing trip, and I'm totally bummin' that I didn't get to hug him goodbye today.

And we dropped Moses off at Jake's parents tonight.  I hated saying goodbye to him.  I cried about it on the way home - which seems so ridiculous now.

But when you're walking into the unknown, all of these little things start to seem so big.

So as we zip our suitcases shut for the last time, and lay our heads on our own pillows tonight...we know that tomorrow brings a new adventure.  Yes, we're scared.  But we're so, so ready.

Pray for us, friends.  Stepping into the unknown is never easy.

One Thing I Know For Sure: The next time I write, it will be from Eastern Europe!


  1. Praying for you Ash!! You too Jake!! Just a few more days and you'll be HOLDING HIM!!! ♥♥♥

  2. SOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR YOU!!!! Heck, I'm nervous too! LOL Just can't help myself!

    Sarah's right...just a few more days...just a few more days!

    God has already prepared the way for you. Take comfort and peace as you rest in HIS arms. Love you both!

  3. My thoughts have been with you all week... I mean, more than they usually are. Just didn't get to capture my thoughts on paper (or "screen," as the case may be.) I could so relate to your last days at Preschool... I remember leaving my elementary school on my last teaching days as well. Indescribable. It was so emotional. I miss so many things about teaching... yet, if you told me today I could go back, I wouldn't be able to say "no" fast enough. I left because I had a student at home... she was only months old at the time, but ready to have me as her full-time teacher. Since then, I've gained another student (the student-teacher ratio here rocks!) Rylee and MY Carter need me more than any other student does. YOUR Carter is going to be YOUR student -- your most special student ever. And I know you know that, but it doesn't make change -- and leaving what you love -- any easier. And now... you're "leavin' on a jet plane" (Sorry -- Armageddon just popped into my head, and now I'm not picturing you guys, but instead hottie Ben Affleck... okay, Carin -- focus here.) YOUR Carter is thousands and thousands of miles away, unaware that his family is coming. Well, I think he might feel it in his heart. He feels something, and soon he'll know what it feels like to have a Mom and Dad. And honestly, I can't say that without tearing up. Oh how I wish I could fold myself up and sneak into your suitcase to go along (I might have been able to in college -- I was a skinny-mini... now, not so much.) I can't wait to see that little boy... "Antonio"... who my kids and I first saw on our computer screen -- the one we thought about for TWO YEARS -- the one we sent money to so (as my kids said) "he could buy a Mom and Dad."... the little boy I wondered about adding to OUR family... he'll be in your arms. And that's right where he should be.

    Traveling with you in thought... I can't wait to see pictures of YOU with YOUR Carter! HUGS HUGS!

  4. Thinking of you, and praying for your safe travel, smooth court days, and magical moments with your son.

  5. Blessings on your journey!!! Know that God will be with you every step of the way! Carter is one blessed little boy to have you for his parents -- orphan NO MORE!!!

  6. Safe travels! I cannot wait to hear about your trip!

    Kim @

  7. God's speed and protection to you my sweet and beloved kids. God has been preparing you for this journey long before it was ever a thought in your minds..long before you two met oh so long ago....Psalm 139 proves that very fact...Every day of your life was recorded in HIS book even before creation. You make me so proud. You are bringing great honor to the King Of Kings!!! I love you
    Mama G


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