I'm not an emotional person. It takes a lot for me to cry. I'm not sure why - I've just never been a cryer.
I've said it before & I'll say it again...this process has totally messed with me. Because I've turned in to the sappiest, most emotional person. I roll my eyes at myself a lot....I've turned in to one of 'those' people.
The beginning phases of this process kicked it off. Just after committing to Carter, I was the most emotional. Every song, every smile from one of my preschoolers, every verse I read...would bring me to tears.
Then the paperwork came on heavy. I didn't have time to be emotional. In fact, now that I look back, I didn't really even have time to think about Carter. I feel awful saying that now - but I was in this GI Jane - get-it-done NOW mode. My focus was on all those signatures - notaries - the benefit - and now...well...all of that is done. And my focus has turned back to Carter.
I will probably be with Carter on my 27th birthday (September 30th!). Amazing.
Of course, with my focus off of all the paperwork, and back on to what matters...the emotions are back. In full force.
Just thought you'd like to know.
I've talked before on this blog about the people that we've met throughout this process. It's really amazing. People who were total strangers 4 months ago, we now consider friends. Friends of ours...and friends of Carter's.
Carter doesn't know it, but he has friends. Lots of them.
Today, we got something in the mail from one of his friends.
|Carter's First Backpack!!|
Stacy - LOVE IT! It's totally adorable...and it reminds us that we're so close to packing our bags and bringing that boy home. Thank you for loving Carter. Thanks for being his friend.
I had a post written. Then I deleted it. Then I rewrote it. Then I deleted it again.
It stinks that not everyone embraces this. People that we thought really loved us...but haven't offered one word of love or encouragement. People that we thought cared about us...but haven't even asked us how the process is going. Totally stinks.
What else stinks...is that those people are so absorbed living their own lives, that they're not even reading this. So my writing this serves no purpose then...right? I guess.
Finding out who our true friends are. It stinks.
That's the written-deleted-rewritten-deleted post in a nutshell. I probably already gave it more space than it deserved.
Updated homestudy update.... :)
We've gotten a hold of the right people with our agency, and they're working on an addendum for our homestudy, which will also serve as a document that our USCIS case worker requested. Two birds, people! Love it when it works that way!
So....be on the lookout for the 'golden ticket' post!! It shouldn't be long!!
One Thing I Know For Sure: I was with the infants today. I'm totally pooped (and may or may not be pooped on......). And I have a shoot tonight (if the rain holds off!). So I'm out of creative, catchy things to say. This is all you get today :)